I have been super stressed with everything that has been going on for the last couple months! Honestly, it could be worse, but I have felt like I have been spread pretty thin.
School starting. Jack going into MAINSTREAM kindergarten. Different school, different kids, bigger school, WAY more kids! He went from two and a half hours 3 times a week to six hours five times a week!
Switching therapies around to fit EVERYONE'S schedules. Joe going back to school and getting the transportation (bus) people to figure out what they are doing with him. And getting all his HAB and ABA behavioral therapy started. Fighting for his second hour of speech. He's been regressing worse into himself lately and I hate that!!
James growing into a full blown toddler!! He is BUSY!! Into EVERYTHING!!! And boy is that kid fast!!
I've had some major health problems. They say it's fibromyalgia, but they have found three markers for Lupus. Not to mention the possible surgery I may need in my neck and back. So, needless to say, I'm spent!
BUT...
Tyla is getting baptized next weekend! I am so excited for her, now the SHE is excited! It has taken A LO_HOT of talking and teaching and reconfirming to her that it's not anything scary!!
Last month I took her to the July baptism's since they only do them once a month. I knew she needed to VISUALLY see what was going to happen. I had actually wanted to take her to one every month, but that never happened.! We had talked, and talked, and talked some more about it.
Most of our FHE's have been on baptism. But somehow, I forgot to mention the part of receiving the Holy Ghost.
When we watched this sweet girl Payton get baptized, Tyla was ok. But when it was time to watch the confirmation (where she receives the Holy Ghost) and I said the "G" word to Tyla she had a major meltdown! I mean, one of her thrown herself on the floor meltdown!! I was only embarrassed because we just showed up and didn't even know these sweet people. The Stake Primary Pres told me I could take her, and that she thought it was a great idea.
But what was interesting to me, was to see the Spirit working on her. I can't describe what I saw. She got up. VERY apprehensively, but she sat next to me. Squeezing my hand, I stroked her hair and explained that her daddy was just giving her a blessing like her own daddy has to her in the past. She has also seen her daddy give me many, many blessings. (Thank HEAVENS for the power of the priesthood in the home!!!)
I explained that the Holy Ghost wasn't a "ghost" but a special present from Heavenly Father. That He goes right into her heart to be there to help her choose the right. And to be there for times she is afraid and she can pray to Heavenly Father and he will give her comfort and the Holy Ghost would feel like a nice warm blanket inside of her entire body. We talked about HIM helping with making "good" choices vs. "bad" choices and had fun deciding together what were some "good" ones were and what some "bad" ones were. She had plenty to point out what "bad" choices ALL her brothers make! (yes, Ryker, she thought of you too :) )
The look of relief was almost instant! Last year for her birthday she got some books on baptism and the Holy Ghost because of how nervous she was at SIX! So, like I said. A LOT of talking, and talking, and teaching on what this WONDERFUL ordinance is about, and WHY we do it!
Being a parent has taught me many, many things. Being a parent of a few special needs children has taught me even more! BUT being a co-parent to Tyla has taught me MANY more things!!! It's tough. We all have Ty's best interest at heart. But sometimes I think we get a little carried away and forget what we are REALLY doing and WHY we are doing it! We've had a rough couple of days. I hate what stress does to me. I hate that it usually gets taken out on those around me.
Yesterday I went to my OA meeting. One of the sister missionaries had read something from a little book she has. She wanted to give it to me to read for the month. I always need to remember this and have it in my heart:
The part she read was from Elder Bruce R Mckonkie:
"Contention leads to bitterness and smallness of soul;
persons who contend with each other shrivel up
spiritually and are in danger of losing their salvation.
So important is it to avoid this evil that Jesus expects his
Saints to suffer oppression and wrong rather than lose
their inner peace and serenity through contention."
This had hit close to home. I'm not going into details. But if you are reading this by chance, and I am not sure you even do, but I want you to know I have no contention and am trying my hardest to please Tyla. Most of all, I want to please the Lord. Because He is the One I want to make proud.
That's all for tonight. I am excited for her baptism, but first have to get her party out of the way! On Sat if anyone wants to come! Just let me know!! Haven't even started on that yet!!
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