14 days...

Is that all? Still seems like an Eternity!

In 14 days I will officially be 36 weeks! It will be "ok" for me to have baby James. While it doesn't "seem" THAT far off...it really really does.

Let me throw out the disclaimer that I am SO GRATEFUL we have come THIS far!! I really truly am! I really hope I DO make it 2 more weeks (maybe 3...but that might be pushin it) But I have NEVER been in pain like this!! Literally, it's labor pains 24/7! I can't remember the last time I slept more than 2 hours! I spend most nights in and out of the bath trying to get "comfortable" enough to lose consciousness.

We have done ALL that we can to keep James cooking. So far its really working! That makes me happy. This is the week where Joe was born. I have been dreading / anxiously awaiting the 34 week mark to see where we stand. So far, as of Friday, I am dilated to 1 1/2 and 70% effaced. So we are still doing ALL the meds, I give myself weekly injections (which is mixed with CASTOR OIL...imagine shooting that in your own butt!!), and I have now received the entire round of steroid shots for his lungs. I still go in weekly, sometimes more, to be checked. I no longer have to have ultrasounds because he can't even see my cervix anymore. And I am on "complete" bed rest. Well, the best I can be with wee children at home. I do get a lot of help, but it's still not possible to be down the entire day!

So far we are doing a smidge better then last time. Well since I was hospitalized at 33 weeks last time. I *almost* was again last week, but thank goodness they were able to get the contractions to slow back down. I had lost my "plug" ( gross, I know) at 32 weeks, and we are still so far so good in that area. Then baby Joe was born at 34 weeks 2 days.

Thank goodness he hasn't ever had any MAJOR issues! Nothing he hasn't been able to over come or outgrow!

But this is the time, well to put it as my dear friend Amy puts it..."it's gut check time! Time to see what you're made of"

Unfortunately, I am not faring so well. Maybe, just maybe, if I could actually SLEEP!! I might be a bit tougher! I said,MIGHT!