If it offends you then, quit reading my journal!
We have had a lot of things happen in our family that I don't blog about. I agree some things are too personal to put out there for the whole wide world to see. But when it comes to parenting, health, loosing weight, autism, or just plain being a mom or wife, I write about it. I can't even tell you how many people have even sent me private emails asking me for more information, or more help in this area or that! Or who have thanked me for my honesty because they have been going through the same things. I don't "LOOK" for sympathy! That's the last thing I want! I am just sharing what I am learning through ALL of our challenges!!!
I don't take ANY of the credit. It's just life. I write what I feel compelled to write. I KNOW sometimes the Spirit has prompted me to write about some topics and mostly they end up being something that helps ME!
I have tried SUPER hard to leave "certain" names and situations out of my blog as much as possible. I also feel like I have tried SOOOO hard to have a good relationship with some people. I bend over backwards for them as much as I can. I am sure they feel the same way. I don't know what else to do. I try more than anything to live my life in accordance to the Gospel. And leave it all up to Him.
I want to be a private blog SO bad for these reasons. Not because I have anything to hide, but because words on paper can be taken WAY out of context!!! And there are certain people that are just waiting for me to "screw" up! Or say something that can be used against me somehow. That's how I feel anyway. It may not be true, but lately, that's how I feel.
But the reason I undid my private blog, was by request. I write a lot about autism. About working through it as a mom, as a couple and most importantly WITH our children. I had an abundant emails requesting that they "knew someone, who knew someone who told them about my blog" Then when it was private they couldn't get into it anymore. So that's why it was made public again. People are thirsty for this kind of knowledge, and I definitely have done my fair share of research!!! And am MORE than happy to share!!!!
I have been extra careful and making sure I give credit where credit is due. I am sorry if someone feels like I have failed in this area. Even though I know this person is on the brink of hatred towards me, I don't have ANYTHING close to those feelings for them. In fact, if circumstances were different, I wouldn't be surprised if we ended up being pretty good friends. They may not feel that way, but I do.
I use my blog for my OWN support system. NOT to be judged or mocked. There are days when I honestly feel like I just can't even take one more day of life. Not one. And getting it out on paper, and sharing with my "friends" Yes, maybe seeking for words of encouragement from those who have "been there" and from those who really know my heart. They are always there for me. We are still new on this Autism road to recovery. So we need all the help we can get!
Also, I blog about the awesome things that go on in our lives. Just because we don't take a million vacations, doesn't mean we don't have fun things to blog about. We just live a "normal" everyday life. Just like most people do. Nothing special. Except our extraordinary kids!!
We have been blessed A LOT in our lives, spiritually, and I feel it my duty to share some these experiences we have had. Obviously, some are to sacred in nature to share, but I LOVE having a place where it is so easy to bear my testimony.
I also feel I have opened myself up to be very vulnerable! So I take attacks on me extra hard! I need to learn to grow thicker skin I guess, but because I have ripped off the outer layer of myself, other peoples life's have been blessed. Credit only to the Lord who inspired me to write what I did.
In closing, I just want to thank those who have always been nothing but loving and supporting in all our trials, and enjoyed and shared our happy times as well. I love you all. I would like to leave you with this thought:
"A thankful heart leads to a great life, because even in the midst of challenges in our work, our home, our relationships, and our personal development, the thankful heart realizes that God's world is full of blessings and miracles" by Don Soderquist. (author of Live Learn Lead to make a difference)
9 comments:
Dear Brianna,
I totally LOVE your blog and your cute little family. Living with any special needs is hard. Without finding people who are in the same situation ( or something similiar) we don't have a support system.
When we finally got back in touch I was thankful for all the kind words and loving care you took to be there when I needed someone. You are such a sweetheart. Even when things are tough, keep you head up.
I don't think that anyone has a right to tell you what to put on your blog. Blogging is a therapy for so many people. Getting things out there and off your chest is a amazing therapy. I hate when others dictate what we can and can't say. Just like those people are there to dictate how we can and can't feel.
Keep doing what you are doing. Keep being an awesome mom. Keep being a advocate for those who dont' have voices of their own!
I don't even understand why anyone was having a hard time with your blog... weird! And I didn't realize it was public, I still have it on my private list on my blog so I will have to switch it over and now I will know when it is updated. You know I have found help with your blog and I think it's awesome! Keep writing and try and forget what the others think. :) I know that's hard, I also need to thicken up my skin. ;) Love ya!
Don't worry about what other people think! They aren't in your shoes, don't know what you are dealing with or how you feel! Blogs are really for you aren't they? Keep on, keeping on, you are doing great! Much better than I would be, I am sure! So...get it off your chest whenever you need to and just be you, that's all anyone can ask of you! And if people don't like it, than they can hit the road and you are better off without them anyway :)
WHAT THE HE@#!!! I will pinch anyone who is mean to you!! And pich hard I will!! No one is mean to my BZ DA#$ IT!!
Brianna, you are such a good mom to ALL of your children whether or not you actually gave birth to them. I know that your heart breaks everyday that you can't just make all of their trials go away, just as I feel for you. There are always those people in our lives who are so unhappy in their own lives that they can't help but try to insert their opinions into others lives. It is they who have a problem and not you. This is a free country that we live in where we have the freedom to say what we want and how we want (thank goodness) and like you said if they don't like what you say on your blog then for goodness sake STOP READING IT! They also have the freedom to not read it. I love you and so do MANY MANY other people.
Brianna- STOP IT RIGHT NOW!!!!!! You have NOOOOOOOTHING!!!!!!!!!! to feel bad about. Really. I wish I could put my periods in bold because I mean EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. You have EVERY right to journal your life. Your fears, frustrations, disapointments and celebrations. If you so choose to do that in blog form- that is YOUR choice to make. If "someone" doesn't like it then that is just TOO BAD. That's just how it is. Seriously. My blood is boiling right now. I don't know what this person said but what I do know is that you can only be accused of being real, being honest, and being true to yourself. I have ALWAYS been impressed with how you have handeled the chalenges in your life. I've ALWAYS known that you have the biggest heart- especially for kids. Heavenly Father obviously knows that too- that's why he gave you such special kiddos to be a part of your life. Not only do you care for them, teach them and love them- but YOU do it WELL. Heavenly Father is proud of you, I am proud of you- and everyone who MATTERS is proud of you. Through reading your blog- if that is what we "choose" to do (since it IS a CHOICE)we learn from you, are strengthened by your strength and we gain from your example. NOBODY is perfect. That's why we're here. I think you're certainly doing a freaking FANTASTIC job at making a go at it and doing the very best you can. That's all that is asked of us. You will be rewarded one day for your sacrifices- and the best part will be this: Proverbs 31:10,and 28 and also 3rd John 1:4 XO!!
I'm with Lindy, she said it all! I've told you a thousand times how wonderful you are and what a good mother, friend, wife, ext. ext you are! So chin up young grasshopper. Why don't you give my blog info to whoever is giving you a hard time, Just so they can see what to what to watch out for!! You know while I kick there trash!!
Try not to let any bad comments get to you. I prefer reading the blogs that are open and honest. I know when I am reading the blogs that are perfect that they are just not writing about the hard stuff. You are blogging for all of the right reasons, so keep it up. As you said, they can stop reading!
Thank you all for your sweet and loving comments!!! It's good to have so many people who love and care so much!! And to "The Henry's" thank you. YOU are the perfect example as to why I keep my blog open. I don't know you, but you read my blog and like what you read. I don't know if I have inspired you in any way, but thank you for your sweet comments.
Loves to all!! :)
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