Super Fit and Fab!!

So this is a little plug for my friend Brittany. She has created an awesome and fun little blog to help us get physically fit and spiritually fit. This couldn't have come at a more perfect time!!!

WARNING!!! SUPER PERSONAL FEELINGS AHEAD! NO JUDGING ALLOWED!!

As you all may know, I have struggled with my weight MY ENTIRE LIFE!! Seriously. I was the fat kid in elementary school! I am a food addict. I am a compulsive over eater. I eat with my emotions. Happy. Sad. Stressed. Angry. You name it. I had "someone" tell me about a group she goes too. (it's anonymous so I can't tell you who) It's called OA . You guessed it. Over eaters Anonymous. It is exactly like the AA with 12 step plans. It has helped, a little. Then we found out the church offers one through LDS family services once a week. I can't believe I am telling you this, since it is supposed to be "anonymous" I just "feel" like I should share. In case there is someone out there who is looking for this kind of support.

It has been such a blessing to go to these meetings. Especially the one done through the church. They have the same 12 steps, but tweaked just a little to include the Gospel and the Atonement in them. It has helped me get to the bottom of why I do what I do!! It helps keep things in perspective, with how our Father in Heaven loves us...inside and out!

I went to my Dr today. As I have said before, he gave me till the end of the summer to decide what we wanted to do. Because of my endometriosis, my choices are: GET PREGNANT OR HYSTERECTOMY! I am 30 years old! How am I supposed to make this kind of decision? I have my hands full with my kids, but I am not ready to say I am done FOREVER! Matt and I both have a feeling we have one more waiting for us. So, we decided to go the pregnant route. No luck. I have never had a problem before GETTING pregnant. It was STAYING pregnant that I kinda suck at!

Well, my dr informs me today, not only am I NOT pregnant, but because of my weight PLUS my endometriosis, my chances of getting/staying pregnant are LESS than 10%! He has always been super sensitive to my weight issues (probably cuz he's no stick man himself) but, he told me if I don't loose weight, than I might as well take everything out and be pain free. That hurt my heart a bit. I know I have a HUGE weight problem (pun intended) but to have it put like that for me, kinda kicked me in the gut!

So, here I go! On my journey to become SUPER FIT AND FAB!!! And then maybe prego :)

Wish me luck!!!