It's been one of "those" days!!

Well, on this wonderful journey of the autistic life, we have our "ups" and our "downs". Well, my friends...today was one of those "down" days. Nothing big happened. It doesn't always have to be "something" though. But today while I was meeting with Jacks lead behavior specialist, we were going over the goals we want him to achieve these next few months. It just opened my eyes to where he should be and where he is NOT! I hate that this autism has such a hold on our kids sometimes! It's not always, this bad. But when it's bad, it's BAD!! It just hit me really hard when we were at my parents house. Tyla was running around CRAZY and slamming doors and making Jack scream because he was overstimulated or scared or something...who knows.. while Baby Joe was screaming himself!! It's moments like these that make ME want to SCREAM!!! I don't know what Heavenly Father was thinking. I don't think He realized that I am not so sure I can do this! But, here we are. We ARE getting through this. One day at a time...one hour at a time!!!